Help for a 20-year-old noob?

[BenTiger07]

Many doctors are hesitant to do HRT in younger people, especially in your case since your T isn't that low. While you're going through this, I still think it's a good idea to see some doctors, get more testing, do more research on your symptoms as you're trying to do here, optimize your health whatever way you can (mainly diet, sleep, exercise, and strong relationships), BUT...

It does sound like your main issue is trying to make your loved ones satisfied by being someone who is not really you. I understand it's a tough situation, but at the end of the day, you are responsible for your own happiness, and doing what needs to be done for it.